Fast forward: I have more friends now than I could even have imagined. We have all become close much faster than I ever did with my college friends. I am learning more material than I ever thought possible at an ungodly rate of speed.
Hold: It takes me weeks to get routine things done like calling to make an appointment. I almost never seem to have enough time to deal with the emotional baggage of my day. It is further shoved into the corner of my mind until it becomes too large to ignore anymore. My friendships with my college friends is patchy. I leave and receive many voice mails and very few actual conversations happen.
No one told me about this aspect of getting older, of medical school, of adult life. Not that I want to have my cake and eat it too, but there is a part of me that does want the close friendships that I have with my college friends to continue like they were and still have the time to devote to my studies and my new friends here in Hershey. I miss people so much. I knew that this was going to happen when I went home for break. It hurts every time I leave home.
